2 starts, both fall into the item cat <far from profound>
</end speculation>
order of operations
i’m perpetually taking things apart
that I put together prematurely
always skipping what seem like
poorly written instructions
that turn out to be essential
maybe i should look at this deck
like a math problem
maybe this life too
I should be working backwards
reverse engineering a solution
based on the idealized finished product
rather than working fast forwards
then four steps backwards when
it becomes clear
i cannot drill pilot holes
for lag screws
for rail posts
once the deck boards are in place
in place(s) though
frequently out of place
i’m the guy in the fuzzy GIF
never quite dropping my hammer
on the head of a hard to reach
nail
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mirror mirror
am I seeing?
is that me or the idea of me?
is that reflection, misshapen by cheap laminated plastic
a document?
a curated [framed] representation {abstract}
of what I think I am?
certainly easier to put that on display
hang that idea of me on a white gallery wall
than to take the actual me (whoever/whatever/wherever)
that is
and place me out of place in that place
where people seek to see art representing place
Jonas Lamb 